Week 98 - “The greatest mistake you can make in life is to be continually fearing you will make one” - Elbert Hubbard
life goes fast
It seems like the older I get, the faster life seems to move.
What used to feel like a week when I was a child goes by in a blink nowadays.
And it’s not like it’s because life’s become mundane. I haven’t been in the same place for more than 2 weeks in the last 6 months, but I still remember ringing in the new year like it was yesterday.
I say this all because as time seems to accelerate away, there’s this feeling that it’s about time to pick the right endeavor to devote myself to.
Whether it be a job, physical pursuit, place, or even another person, everyone seems so certain about what they want, while I’m still trying to figure out what the choices are.
It’s funny, because even if I look for advice, even that doesn’t look concrete.
A lot of people seem like they just pick something and run with it, while others take as much time as they can before committing to anything. I think there’s a situation for both scenarios, but it makes me wonder.
Why does everyone else seem so certain, while I’m still figuring things out?
When I was a kid, I never felt like there was any pressure to be certain about what I wanted. If anything, I only got more and more options as I grew older.
It was only later in life did it feel like that decision became more serious, but there was always still a sense of freedom I felt about what I wanted to do with my life.
So why at 21, does it feel like my time to figure out what I should want has passed?
Everyone my age has seemingly already found their “thing”, and although they’re all in varying stages of that journey, it doesn’t seem like they’re worrying about if what they chose was the right choice, but instead, the process itself and what might come after.
So maybe that’s the answer.
I’d actually wager that most people don’t even look ahead to see where their path is heading, so even if you end up disliking the one you choose now, you’re still closer to figuring it out than if you stay still trying to make the perfect decision.
As I think about the future, I know time’s not getting any slower. So maybe the only way to keep up is to start moving, even if I’m unsure of where it might take me.